We’ve been sick over here in La Casa de Primale. First the little one had it, then he gave it to J, and now mama’s got it. And mama’s got cramps. Yeah. It’s been a sucky week so far.
We had some babydaddy drama. I won’t give the deets here, but it’s all been smoothed over and we’re all happy happy joy joy again. I’m a conflict avoider/mediator type person, and I’m learning the hard way that if you want something, you have to say it, or you’ll never get it and it can fester and get ugly. I can be a doormat at times, and I can be taken advantage of by people who know me at all. But like I said, I’m learning. And that’s what it’s all about. I’m feeling ever so grown-up and mature now.
Along with the cramps mentioned above, I’ve had terrible cravings. For sugar and carbs. I’ve indulged here and there, nothing too major. But it’s never as satisfying as I build it up to be in my head. Why is that? I guess I’m idealizing the junk. Like it really is as good and wonderful as I think it is. But it’s always a let down. I should just take the lesson and move on. But I’m sure I’ll muck it up again. I’m human. Old habits die really really hard, I guess.
In other, more wonderful news: My shoulder is feeling almost 100% again! Woo hoo! Just in time too, because my commitment to go boxing 3 days a week starts next Wednesday! Aaaaah! Mama’s scurred. But I know once I get there I’ll feel all badass and fall back into it no problem. Know why? Because I AM a badass. I punch stuff. For fun. With pretty pink gloves.
School countdown is on like donkey kong. I start in T-Minus 6 Days. I’m eager to get going. There is also fear and anxiety involved, but I can usually ignore that pretty well. I mean, I’m 35 and I’m going to be starting out as a teacher, if all goes well, at 38! I suppose that makes me a late bloomer. But at least I’m blooming, dammit! And the more I delve into biology, the more I love it and enjoy explaining it to people. Good qualities for a biology teacher, don’t you think? I do.
Well, there’s my update. Not much. Just recuperation, trying to stay primal, and waiting for school. I’ll be back hardcore once we’re all better here. Now excuse me while I go hunt down a primal snacky snack!!!